Surprise!

Don't get me wrong, I love kids. They are fun to run around and play silly games with. I think it's great for any adult to return to their childhood for awhile and would recommend ignoring all of the strange societal rules about making too much noise or being undignified and play with your kids for awhile. DO IT! But I've never had a hankering to have children of my own. I know a lot of women that have dreamed about having babies for a long time - "Ever since I was a child I've always wanted to have two little boys and two little girls of my own." These statements are often made with a certain wistfulness, eyes glazed over and staring into the distance and hands clasped in a pleading fashion. That always freaked me out. I was thinking about climbing trees, swimming and eating ice cream when I was a kid - not getting pregnant. Even when I was in my teens and twenties and had developed a great interest in sex I was not thinking about being pregnant - I was thinking "Hey, sex is awesome and fun!"

That being said...

It started like a very sneaky virus. I can't even pinpoint the moment, day, week or month that it all started. It was like my mind suddenly thought one day "Well, it might not being completely horrible." and just went on from there. Naturally, I kept these thoughts to myself. My beloved husband and I had always agreed on not having children and I had made my feelings on the matter known to my family and friends. Still, I could not deny the fact that adding a little munchkin to the family was steadily growing on me. It changed from being a not-so-horrible notion to "Well, if it happens, it happens but it would have to be unexpected, a fluke." to "Hm. I can't stop thinking about babies!!" I am more than happy to let you all know that while my hormones were kicking along full-throttle I was able to retain the pragmatic part of my brain. I was able to reason with the baby virus that was trying to take over and force it into a tenuous submission. It was at this time that I broached the subject with my hubbie. Surprisingly, he had also been thinking about kids and took to the subject much more calmly and happily than I thought he would. We established a waiting period - we thought it was safer that way. I mean, come on, there's a waiting period before you can buy a gun, right? The way we looked at it, pregnancy was not something to be taken lightly or rushed in to.

There we were in June, waiting period shortened from 1 year to 6 months and ready as we'll ever be to start trying. Who gets pregnant on the first try!?! I'll give you three guesses. The first two do not count. Here we are in September, 12 weeks along, staring at each other slack-jawed and thinking "HOLY CRAP!!".

Let me sum it up for those of you that got tired of reading and decided to skip to the bottom:

I'M PREGNANT!!

- There will be more to follow - probably monthly but maybe more often than that.